Difficult
Holidays of any type are hard.Next week will he 5 years since I list my brother. Today is Father's Day and I miss my dad my ex has left my sons life so he doesn't get Father's Day. I look at photos of...
View ArticleWhy?
I look at photos of pretty girls. I look at photos of toned and muscular females. I look at women in bikinis.I wish I could look like them. I hate how I look. I am not pretty or sexy.I feel like a...
View ArticleIt's strange...
I dyed my hair... She died her hairI am going back to school and earned my degree and and recognition... She decided to go back to school.,,I work with a personal trainer at the gym... She started...
View ArticleE.D. Or D.E.?
I know I have issues with food. Wouldn't necessarily say I have an ED (eating disorder).... I have more of DE (disordered eating).... Which, in my opinion, are different!Anyone lead out there fighting...
View ArticleMe and Food
I am hungry, but that is normal.I look in the fridge.... We have a fridge (and freezer) full of food, but I can't bring myself to eat it.It's not bad for me... It's just that I can't mentally get past...
View ArticleMakeup and dress up
I have a dinner to attend tonight. I'm dressed up (new dress), with makeup , my hair is down, and I got dressed, feeling pretty.In the last hour, I suddenly don't feel as pretty. I look at myself in...
View ArticleHitting this fall hard
Never did anything but one of the walks for breast cancer. Just did a 5k mud run (kinda). And have signed up for 2 more 5k walks, a 10k, and next years 5k mud run.My trainer went off to school so I am...
View ArticleI HATE MYSELF!!!!!!
Right now I'm struggling and really do hate myself. I am in a funk and can't shake it. I am a miserable piece of shit and want to disappear!!!
View ArticleBad day
My day has been roughNot really happyDepressedWant to disappearHow about another glass of wineHate myselfNot happy
View ArticleWork and Marriage
How do you work with your spouse when you are separated?It just seems like it would be tough. I guess it is possible unless you are the only two employees. In my ex-husband's case.... That was us. It...
View ArticlePencil thin Barbie dolls
My family is made up of pencil-thin, pretty Barbie dolls. They have had two kids and four kids. And they are still a size 4-6. What's up with that?It's depressing. So they are pretty... And thin......
View ArticleThat one person
Ever had that one person in your life who turns you on?They make you laugh and smile. With them, you step outside your comfort zone, knowing you're safe.They bring out a side of you that people don't...
View ArticleNew Weather ... Old Demons
I love autumn. My favorite season. So pretty. So fresh. So crisp.But my depression seems to act up about the same time. It's great outside but I get lost in my own mind. Trapped. A victim. I'm...
View ArticleToo much at one time
Feel like hellweather has changed and feels drearyDark in the morningMy birthdayAll aloneFeel fatFeel sadSuffer from OCD and anxietyIntrovert who overextends myselfHard on myselfCan't keep doing...
View ArticleRough start
Today is my bday and I should be happy, but I feel meh. I don't like birthdays, I don't like dreary weather, and the holidays get me down. I'm in a funk and just want to go back to bed. I don't want to...
View ArticleThings Mama Always Taught Me...
DO NOT discuss RELIGIONDO NOT discuss MONEYDO NOT discuss POLITICALApparently people have forgotten that.I haven't, so don't ask me....
View ArticleFat day clothes
Woke up feeling bloated. Which is soooo not cool.Wearing my "fat day" clothes.Anyone else have those?
View ArticleSweet!!
Went to work out tonight.There is a guy there who is a sweetheart... And cute.When I left, he asked if I'd be there tomorrow. I told him "no but maybe Monday". He then replied with "Tuesday. See you...
View ArticleSpecial someone
He came into my life around 7 years ago.We met online and hit it off.He is someone very special and makes me feel complete.Have you ever had someone like that in your life?When you find someone who...
View ArticleWeather
Last night it snowed.It's amazing how waking up to snow, with an overcast sky, can make a difference in your mood. A not so good difference...This is my first winter with my new car, so it's like...
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